When your family breaks up pain beyond belief.
Roll back a year ago and I could never dreamed where I would be today I have lived and been a dad with a wife and 4 sons.
Living together eating together spending Christmas together here I am one year later and it feels my whole world has fallen apart.
My life with my wife has never been particularly smooth but we had a strong love for each other and I didn’t think it would end the way it did.
In the last two months we went from living together to my wife going to Bulgaria without me for two weeks with my son and ignoring my calls or texts for days at a time and then finally renting a flat and taking a contract for a year for her own place and moving out.
She took my youngest son and left my two other sons living with me basically abandoned the family for some imaginary freedom which she didn’t get.
It is very complicated the things going on with us but the bottom line is my family will all be spending Christmas separately this year.
Which is totally weird and completely crazy in my opinion but due to factors outside of my control thats the way it’s gonna be.
At the start of this we agreed we would continue to remain amicable and friends but yesterday we moved to a nearly no contact no communication situation.
So things seem to be going from bad to worse my other son who went to Bulgaria to live for three months will be coming back at the end of September and will be also moving in with me.
My mother who had to sell her house to pay back the mortgage will also be moving in with us so it is going to still be a pretty busy house minus my ex and my 9 year old son Xander.
To say that divorce sucks is a total understatement it has turned my whole world upside down I have not felt this amount of grief since my dad died in 2009.
Even though I didn’t do anything wrong I wasn’t the one who was unfaithful I still feel very bad and blame myself for ending up in such a horrible situation.
Nobody who has a 22 year marriage with 4 kids ever dreams of ending up in this situation. It is like my worst nightmare come true.
Someone who I once did everything with and shared the same bed nearly every night is like a total hateful stranger with vengeance and spite against me it seems totally crazy.
Who knows where the future goes from here ?