As I write this my dad would have been 79 years of age if he had of lived. Recently it feels like my whole life has been falling apart I recently signed divorce papers with my wife after I lost all trust in her after she had an affair.

Dads Old Car

Dad in our Greek Restaurant In Newtownards in 1980

I have had some extreme health challenges that have caused me a crazy amount of pain and suffering and watched as my family were literally blown apart from each other.

I have spent days in despair sadness feeling about as low as I have been since after my dad died in 2009.

I know I have to pull myself together as i am presently being a victim which is only going to make things worse.

Life will throw huge challenges at you and just when you think nothing else bad can happen it throws another few curve balls your way.

So brace yourself for all the bullshit brace yourself for all the people who will attack you behind your back while being nice to your face, brace yourself for governments banking campanies social networks who will try to screw up your life.

Brace yourselves for men or women (in my case) who will lie and cheat and deceive you and walk after 20 years with no regrets.

Life is hard and if you manage to get throught it all and come out the other side then you are a true miracle and in the minority.

Unfortunately for all the ups there are also many downs in life so we all come across them if you are going through some really bad stuff right now I wish you all the best. I hope you will grow from it and that things will eventually get better for you.